3 years & 30kilos.

 

…30kgs! What is 30kgs? For me, as a Mother of two daughters, and a Wife, it’s a lot. It’s a lot more than simply 30kgs of weight lost from my body. 30kgs for me, is blood, sweat, and many tears. It’s trying and struggling, only to try again and slowly get stronger. It’s juggling all of the daily things so that I can squeeze in that extra session, or simply just make the ones I already committed to. It’s pushing myself to do things that I had for so long believed that I couldn’t do. It’s trusting in the process, and learning to look beyond the scales and the numbers that those scales reflect back up at me. It’s prioritizing my health, choosing the right foods to fuel my body, and loving it at all of its stages. After all, I have grown two beautiful humans with this body. But most of all, it’s believing in myself, and finding ME again. It’s feeling strong and happy, and feeling like myself again. My BEST self. Not only for me, but for my family! After all, they are my “why”!

 

My first BODYWAR session 3years ago, I cried. I was mortified to leave the house in tights, I could barely complete the fitness test, I couldn’t breathe, I struggled to even jog, and I truly believed I was just too far gone. I was embarrassed in myself, ashamed I had let myself go, and I didn’t believe that I could do it. But something in me kept going, and I’m so glad that I did. The sessions didn’t get easier, and I didn’t see the results quickly, but I did start to absolutely love turning up to them, and slowly the results started to follow. I genuinely looked forward to seeing the trainers and the friends that I had made, and had so much fun working out, and taking on all the challenges the trainers would set for us.

 

I started to make small changes with my food, our daily routine, and these eventually just became a part of our normal life. That’s what BODYWAR has become for me, a part of normal life. It’s not a phase, or a fad diet. It’s a healthy lifestyle, and one that I’m constantly pushing the goal posts on, and striving to improve. It’s pushing me to do more, and try harder things, and It’s believing that I can. I’ve always kept the one quote with me which says, “I didn’t come this far, to only come this far”, and that’s been my constant reminder through this journey. Plus, if I ever lose my way or feel things are too hard, I just look at my two little girls watching on, and I remember that I want nothing more than to make them so proud, and to know that they too can do anything they set their minds to. Even when it’s hard, or requires a little sweat!

 

So 3 years on, and 30kilos lost….. Sure, I look a little different, and the number on my tights has thankfully gone down, but what it really looks like to me, is a happier, a stronger, a more confident, a fitter, and a healthier Mum, Wife – ME!